It's Been Awhile

Hey! Been awhile since I have written in here. Don't really know what to write at this moment. Been writing in my journal and such.

Ah! So I have a new "lover"! LOL. OK. Not really. But I really like the character from this one book. His name is Patch, and he is from the book called Hush, Hush. It is a very good book, and I recommend it very much. I like it more than Twilight actually. :) So I need to find a Patch of my own.

OK. So, I feel like I should try to be dating again or something, but uh,... :\ I got nothing mostly. I mean, I did have some opportunities one time, but then things got crazy, so I don't know if they would still like to try, you know? I feel bad about canceling on them, but it was so crazy.

So, I need to try harder at school. Sometimes it seems like no matter how much effort I put into it, it doesn't seem to be enough. Need to start staying up late at nights somehow or something. But I like sleeping.

I think I may be starting to get sick. :/ It was from either:

1. Shoveling snow off the road and creating pathways for about an hour or so
2. Sharing a cup/drink with another sick person.

So my own stupidity, but oh well. Don't really care/mind. Just as long as I don't get terribly sick.

So, I'm thinkin' that I am most likely too emotional or something. Like yesterday, a friend of mine was talking 
with another friend, and friend number two was sayin' something like they could not handle being friends with friend number one. So I was trying to help friend number one realize how they were there for friend 
number two other times just not last night because they accidentally feel asleep and didn't wake up until like two hours after they were suppose to pick up friend number one. I just felt like crying. I felt like I could 
feel both of their pains. Does that sound weird or stupid? So, I was to calm myself down and stop crying 
because I didn't want friend number one to go like, "Why the heck are you crying?" So friend number one is 
worried about friend number two ignoring him. I told him that she will most likely start talking with him again 
and that she probably just needs some time or space to herself. I also told him he should pray. And I also told
him that I will pray and fast for him and her.
I was also trying to find another job, but that isn't going so well so far, so I am most likely stuck as working as 
a lifeguard for Massenutten. But maybe I should just deal with the things going on. I am not getting all sad and
mopey like I was earlier. Last couple times of work weren't so bad.

Some people lately have been telling me that I have been distant. Kind of sucks. I don't mean to be. Maybe I
just feel like I can't really talk with them because I feel like that they would not understand because they are 
not part of the situation or were not part of a situation like it.

I am feeling kind of hungry right now. I want food.

I feel so... hyper-active in my English class sometimes. I am most likely one of the most talkative, rambucious 
(I have no clue on how to spell this word) people there. Mr. Scott sometimes goes like, "Someone other than 
Danielle please." It's kind of funny, but I love English and sometimes I can really get into talking.

OK. I think I am going to peace out now and do some reading. Later. :)

Hey, so, I just went back to read some old blogs, and I realized I said I would become more distant with
people. Somewhat funny. Didn't remember writing that part. Maybe I have been becoming more distant 
without being conscious of it?

I'm Not Going to Talk to Anybody Anymore

I feel sick. I feel like I can't talk to anybody or else they start spreading the wrong message to others. I always end up getting slapped or screwed over. So I am not going to tell anyone anything anymore. I'll just keep it to myself and start becoming more distant with people.

Failing at Life

I believe I have a F- at life right now. I feel like I can't do anything. How does everyone else balance things out?

School

So here I am at school. =)

So far, it's been pretty easy and good. It's cold though. I wished I didn't leave my jacket in the car, but I did. Hm.... Reminder to self, do not ever do that again.

Caleb and Jenna (especially Jenna. :) I love her) talk about coming to the school and spending the day with me. =) That would really be fun I think. I'm looking forward to that if they actually do have the chance to do it.

I'm gonna go now. Do some other things.

How Am I Functioning?

I'm wondering on how I feel ok right now when I haven't been sleeping and................................
:) Anyway, I should get ready for school. Just felt like babbling in here for a second.
Later.

Movie

Was going to see a movie with some friends tonight. But then we ended up returning the tickets. Oh well...It wasn't like one of the movies that were on the top of my list.
I can't wait to eat some Chinese food on Sunday (that is if I can get Chinese food. :) I'm looking quite forward to it if I do. )
Um......I don't know really what else to talk about. I think I will go now...
Oh, the movie we were going to see was going to be my first midnight release. Oh well....I can say that my first movie midnight release was New Moon. :) That is a movie I am looking forward to. :)

Sad

     I feel really sad.  I've been reading this book called Hard Love.  It makes me think of somethings that I guess that have happen recently.  It reminds me of people that I care about.  It reminds me of how I felt when the character were going through something similar...(some things that I have experienced before).

     I want to be hold.  I want to be comforted.  I want someone to tell me that everything is all right.

     I know I'm being stupid.  But that is how I feel.

     I can't quite say what is the source of my sadness...I guess it is a collection of things that have been happening.

     But I need to be strong.  I need to be supportive for someone else who is already sad enough.  If I am sad, how am I suppose to help him?

     I want to cry again.   I've already cried here in the school.

     Sometimes I wonder if I cover up too much or something.    It always seem like people can't tell how I feel except a few.  And at that moment I'm ok so I shrug it off saying that I'm fine.

     Why am I like this?  Is it because I'm fasting?  Is it because it is just the way I am?  Or is it the book?  Or is me remembering things?  Is it me just being stupid?

     What is wrong with me?

     I get the feeling that I might wake up the next day and wonder why I wrote all of this.  That I will call myself for being stupid and making things a big deal when it is not so bad.

     How is it that at a particular moment I can feel so sad and have these negative emotions when I know sooner or later I'll be happy.

     Seems like I have been crying a bit recently.  But I also have some good times thrown in to.  I want to stop feeling like this.  I really do.

     I'm starting to feel a little better by writing all this out...I don't think people actually read what I'm typing, but that is ok.  Feels somewhat good knowing that someone someday might read this when I am like thirty.  And then if they ask me about it I might just laugh and say I just wasn't really feeling good and that everything is ok now.

     Actually I really do feel better now.  I need to finish reading that book.  Very easy reading but brings powerful emotions, ya know?

     I'm gonna get goin.  Update my other blog and then start reading again.

     I'm going to do my best at making every moment count.  And make those sad ones not last so long.  I'm going to focus on the times that I am happy.  Like this Tuesday, I went out to my friends house, and after one of my friends who were there (well live there) finished their test with their classmate (who I think is pretty cool. :) ), we went out to the EMU campus to star gaze.  I loved it so much.  I've always wanted to do that with friends.  Just lie down on the ground and look at the stars.  And I got to know my friends better too.  :)  And even though I haven't really slept the night before that and I was starting to talk crazy like I normally do when I have no sleep, it was so much fun.  I told Jenna I wanted to do that again.  We might do it on Saturday.  But I was watching the news yesterday and it said how is was going to rain Friday and Saturday morning.  I hope we can still go and the rain stops like at lunch time.

     I bought a new laptop from Jeremiah. :)  Compared to my other one it is so much better!  I'm excited and happy about it.  Thank you Jeremiah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   Anyway, I should really get going now.

     Later. :)

     P.S.  Feels good to write somewhere else besides my journal.  This place allows me to feel like I'm screaming to world about how I feel without literally screaming. :)

School

     I am at school right now doing my study hall.  I've been taking care of my finances and such in the library.  I wish I had faster internet at home so I can do it all there instead of like at school or something.

     I've been having people spending the night at my house for like the past three nights.  I think I am going to be by myself tonight.  I don't really want to be by myself...but I'll have to get used to it.  I guess I just don't really like the idea of being alone.  But what else am I going to do?  I don't want to be all needy or anything.  I'm so stupid.

     I wish the school system would let us get on Facebook so I can check up on that and update things, but they don't.  Be nice if I could check my gmail too.  I can check my AOL mail though. :)  So at least that's something I can do.  And I can be on here on my blogs. :)

     I want to play on my video games more, but I should probably being doing school work.  Actually, I should be getting back to school work now.

     I donated some blood today. :)  Third time donar!!!  Yay!!! :)  So, I won't be able to donate again until Dec. 10, 2009.  Wish will be exciting. :)  Yea, I know.  I'm weird for getting excited about donating my blood, but I like to help people.

     Ok, I'm gonna go now and start working.  Although I don't really want to, but it's something I gotta do right? :)  Later!

Life II

     I don't know what to think.  All I know is that I need to really well in school and become a better disciple of Jesus Christ.  Those are the only things I am sure of.

     Otherwise, I feel somewhat dead now.  Guess I am still figuring out a relationship I am having with someone.  I just don't know what to think.  Been through so many emotions with this person.  Trying to figure out if they actually care or if I am just something to cuddle with because at the moment he doesn't have someone else.  He said that he thinks that me being a Latter Day Saint will cause problems (No alcohol, no fornication, belief of prophets).  He came over last night and seemed so bummed because he ended up saying good by to another girl... One of my friends said they think he is being a player.  I am just trying to figure out if he just got confuse like he said or can't really decide.  I remember him saying how he was an indecisive person.  He told me that he just couldn't decide which one to be with so he was just hoping that one of us would just say to "back off" or "stay out of my life".

     I have to go.  Bell rung.

Life

I haven't been going to church lately sadly. I just feel like I shouldn't go. I need to change this attitude. Church is important and I know this. I guess I just feel unworthy or something. I haven't been going to seminary. I probably have over 20 abstences, but that is ok. If I do start going, that's ok. I'll go for the spiritual experience. Not the whole seminary graduation thing. Which I wouldn't be able to do anyway because it'll be only three years that I've done it, not four.

I don't really want to be at school now, but I know I need to be here to do work. I don't feel like doing any my classwork. I just want to be gone. Leave. Go somewhere. I have work today. And I should be thinking about my future if I did ever to decide to leave. It'll mess me up somehow in the long run. So here I am still at the school typing away at this computer not studying when I should or do the Spanish work that need to be done.

Things have been happening. And I think I might be changing because of it. I don't know how I should be feeling now. I think I'm numb. Very numb. But at the same time I can't help but somewhat feel the normal self. I don't know. I'm all mix up now. I'm in love with a great guy. But he thinks he doesn't deserve me. I think more of in the end I don't deserve him. I mean, look at me. I can't really express myself well except like maybe when I write. I want to cry want now, but I can't cause that would cause a scene. Although, that probably would get me out of class and maybe get me home, but then I would have to explain all the things that are going on in my mind or what has been happening.

I'm on my tenth journal now. You know, for like the past four journals, Caleb has been in all of them. I think he's the most person I ever had talked about before. I'm such a loser.

On Sunday, I lost all the music on my lap top. Which really sucks. Some of the music was saved because they were considered purchase on my iPod so it transfered it back on my laptop. I've been trying to put videos on my iPod but that isn't working.

Angels on the Moon is playing on my iPod right now. A song that is somewhat appropriate for how I somewhat feel. Or its just nice and slow and it ... I don't know. What the heck am I talking about?

I...

I should probably go soon to start writing in my Spanish journal but I will do that in like five minutes.

I left my cell phone in my car. I want to check it to see if I have any messages. I'm thinking about doing it during lunch time. I have to see though. I'll do it like during the last five minutes of lunch or something before I go to Spanish. Ug. Spanish. I have a test in there. Not looking forward to it. I have a C in there now because I can't talk right (and I need to work on my vocabulary).

Now Halo is playing on my iPod.

I should go now.

I feel like saying I want to die or be gone right now... But I know I just need to keep looking forward like I did in my freshman year when I decided not to be sad anymore after all those years in middle school and 5th grade. I also need to pray and read my scriptures. I know He is there. I just need to turn to Him. But I haven't been doing that. I've been trying to do things on my own. I need to stop that. Someone help me.

If someone is actually reading this blog. Don't worry. I'm fine. I'm just typing away on whatever comes into my head. I'll be fine. I know I will. This blog is somewhat acting like a diary for me. I need to stop that. Good bye.

The Persian Letters

     So I'm working on my English 12 and I come upon this reading assignment from it.  It had excerpts from the book The Persian Letters.  It first grieved me on how the Troglodytes were being wicked and not helping each other, but then when I got to read about the other group (known as the Young Troglodytes), it made me happy to see how harmonize they were.  I mean, it would be amazing if we could live like that.  I feel like crying still now.  The end of the excerpt I have made me feel sad because the younger group wanted to have a King and the person they have chosen to be king was very sad because he thought the people would lose their virtue because they would only try to live by or around the rules and forget about their entire virtue and morality.  I want to read the entire book.  It seems like it would be a very good book.  I hope someone gets it for me.

Gotta go.  Release bell bout to ring.

Not a lot of time...

      So I've been a crazy maniac trying to work really really hard at life, school, and yada yada yada.

     I am graduating early!!!  Whoo hooo!!!!  June 2010!  Just got to finish my BYU Independent Study English 12 and take a SOL test October (writing I think).

     So here's my plan so far.

1. Graduate early.   While I am in school, I will be saving the loads of money I will be making from work.
2. I will check out the Massaging school in Charlottesville and go there after I graduate.
3. Go to BRCC to get the basic classes done.
4. Go to another college to get a doctor in Physical Therapy.

     Everything else I will just see what happens.   Like I always wanted to get married young, so yeah.  I'll just see how the future goes.  But for the moment.  Here's my plan!!!! :)  I am definitely will be going to that massage school and became a massage therapist at least.  What I want to do for my senior summer is go to Europe or Japan and do like a little tour.  I think I will most likely go to a European country because it will probably be cheaper than going to Japan.  I'm thinking of visiting either France, Italy, or Germany.

     OK.  I need to get going and start working.  Ta ta for now!!!! :)

So Sorry!

Sorry! I haven't posted like forever! I have dial-up at home, so yeah. LOL. Anyway! My summer has been awsome!!! Been working, got to go the beach (and I'm going again for a day! woo-hoo!). I got to meet some cool new people (Luis and Carla). :) I know this post is really short, but gotta go!
Oh, tomorrow, I'm gonna go pay for my school fees! :) And see my schedule.

Out of School

Yay! School year is over! Although, I am going to summer school. I got out of school after presenting my chemistry project. Today wasn't going to be much of a school day anyway.
I've been trying to upload some of the photos of my sister's graduation on Facebook, but it's giving some problems. Atleast some of them are uploading here at the library instead of not at all like at home.
So over the summer I will be taking US/VA Government. Whoo hoo. I'm hoping for the summer class to be just as interesting as the year long class.
Things I need to do over the summer before new school year starts: summer work!!! >_< class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">procrastinator that I am!!!
I'm going to head to work now. I feel pretty accomplished with my day.
By the way. :) I got a FM transmitter for my iPod and a running strap for it! So happy! I got it by selling all those CDs to FYE!!! I'm going to be selling more things. :)
Later. :)

Saturday

So on Saturday I did all the driving to and from Kings Dominion. :)  It was fun hanging out with Aneila and the Smiths.  We were there for a total of seven hours.  Aneila and I rode one ride together, the Avalanche.  We also went on the Scooby-Doo laser ride, carousel, and the ferris wheel.

Gotta go.  Bell rang.  :)

Japan

So I was thinking about going on a trip to Japan after I graduate from high school. It's so expensive! I need to find out if the Caleb really meant that he wanted to go or if he was just joking. I'm hoping to see him at work today.

Anyway, I went and play tennis with Crystal yesterday and it was a lot of fun!! We're planning to do it every Wednesday now.

I feel like my brain has died from finishing that Biology project but it's all good now. Just waiting to leave school now. Today is Club/Field Day, so nothing is really going on. So I feel really bored out of my mind now...I guess I could be doing some work, but all of that is either in my car (which they don't let you go to, so if you asked, sometimes they look at you like an idiot) or at home.

I plan to go to work after I leave school. My mind is really messed up now.

I would be messing around on Facebook now, but that website is blocked on the school computers.

Still haven't received my letter from BRCC yet. Waiting for it.

I could be home right now watching the anime series that Caleb lend me. :( I'll stay up tonight and watch them after I watch an episode of Gilmore Girls.

Kat just told me that smiling on your driver license is illegal in some places now. I wonder why...

I made a wish list through blogger. I just like making lists of things. It's fun (OK, not really, but it keeps me occupied).

Wish I knew where my earphones were so I could listen to my iPod.

Can't wait for the summer to start.

School

So right now I have this bunch of free time in English and I would totally be working on my science projects right now, but those are things that I have to do at home. Oh well. So right now, I am just messing around on my blogs and I added movies to my Netflix to complete summer work for English. So I need to find a nice notebook for that because he (Mr. Scott) wants us to take notes and such.

I am definitely graduating in the 2010 summer. I'm excited about it actually. :)

I'm going to play tennis with my sister Crystal this afternoon. I'm hoping the courts to be dry because it has been rainy.

Need to finish up on a test in Spanish. Shouldn't be too bad.

Don't really want to go to Youth tonight, but I have a feeling that I should go. It's been awhile.

I lost my headphones to my iPod. :( I need to find them so I can listen music on the go.

I watch Maburo (I know I most likely misspelled that. Need to figure out how to correctly spell it) with Caleb on Sunday. I want to watch the rest sometime. I only got to see the first DVD.

Going to Kingsdominion this Saturday! Can't wait. I just hope it will be bright and sunny.

I decided that I will do summer school this summer. I'll be doing the government class. So next summer I can just do one class and not two. I haven't told my guidance counselor this, so I hope everything will be OK.

Sometimes I wonder if I make myself do too many things at once, but I want to do it.

I'm gonna go now. Bell is going to ring soon and I should probably work on my Algebra homework.

Catch Up Part Two

OK, continuing on catching up. I told Kat I would write about this on Facebook, but I rather write it in here. This happen on 19th of this month. :)

So, originally, I was gonna go with Caleb to Blue Ridge to get a tour, but I needed to turn in some things also. So he said he needed to go to the book store, so I was like cool that's fine (giving you background info like I always do. I used "so" twice. LOL. How lame is that?)(I also asked Aneila and Jordan, but they had other plans. I should probably plan out things better, but this drive was fun. :) ). Tuesday happens and Caleb isn't able to go. So I thought that was all good and OK because I had a somewhat idea on how to get to Blue Ridge. So, I'm driving down on 42 and I make it to the city of Blue Ridge, not the college. So I go to the post office in Blue Ridge and asked how to get to Route 11, because I knew it had to be right on there because I saw a map of it. So I freaked out the mail lady when I said I needed directions but then she calmed down when all I wanted to do was get to route 11. So I get back on the road and I can't find the gas station she tells me to get on. So I backtrack all the way to Harrisonburg because I knew that South High (or is it just South? Can't remember...) was Route 11. So I get on Route 11 there and when I go down farther on the road, I find that they are doing construction work on it!!! So I had to end up taking a detour following the signs. Well, the detour takes me back on Route 42. So I am all like, I was just on this road!!!!! I made sure to follow the detour signs and was back on route 11. So I'm going down route 11. Now, I did had a panic attack once because this sign was telling me to get off of Route 11 to get to Blue Ridge, but I kept going. So, I finally see the entrance sign for Blue Ridge and I go to park in the guest section. I walk in to turn in my application when the lady tells me that they were about to close in three minutes. Now, the amount of time this whole trip took (from Spotswood High to Blue Ridge) was an hour and half maybe. Maybe two hours. Not sure, but it took a long time! I definitely now my area better now. :)

Catch Up Time

OK, I know it has been a while since I have last written and there is actually a lot I would like to talk about but there is only so much time.  So, some of the things I am going to say won't necessarily be in chronological order.  :)

In guitar class, our last project is to write a song.  I had the chords, and I have the words written, but I feel like they don't go together so now I have to write the chords all over again.

I'm not going to be an architect anymore.  I am going to be a physical therapist and at the moment I plan to go to BYU to get my degree for it there.

I still haven't received my acceptance/rejection letter yet from Blue Ridge.

I decided I need to really work my butt off to save money for my upcoming school/college year.

I talked with with my guidance councilor, Ms. Elmore, I can graduate early.  I only have like two classes left, so I can definitely do it.  I just have to take those two classes over the summer.  What was really funny was that she said, "What?  You have a older boyfriend?"  That sounded funny because first of all, I don't have a  boyfriend and never had one.  Anyway.  I just felt like saying that in my blog.  Some positive things I think that is nice to graduating early would be that I won't be like one of the oldest people in my grade.  I could work more and save up money for schooling (I should probably continue "shopping" around and decide which school I really would like to go to).  Ms. Elmore said she wanted to tell me some consequences. 1) I most likely will be around older people who like to go out to places to drink and I wouldn't be able to go because I am still underage.  Personally, I think that's fine with me.  2) I'll be missing out in leadership opportunities.  I think I have had enough of those and still somewhat use them.

Gotta go.  Bell rang.

Doctor

So I have been telling Mom and Dad about this foot problem I have been having, and they're finally letting me go to the doctor.  The problem is, it seems I have to go by myself.  I'm leaving school early and all that.  It's just I don't want to be by myself today and...Anyway, it seems like none of my siblings can go with me and Mom  and Dad are going to work.  I'll be fine...

Bell rang.  Gotta go.  Later.

BRCC

So, starting in the fall of 2009, I will be going to BRCC after school. :) That's going to be exciting. The class I will be taking is Biology. I want to take a class in the Spring '10 also, but those haven't come up yet. Caleb has been helping me out and I really hope that my guidance counselor will call me in today. The times I try to see her for other things, it seem like she never got to me. I printed out the application and filled that out. I need Mom or Dad to sign it though. I just texted Mom to ask her to come by the school...I'm wondering if the both of them stayed home...if they did, that means Mom will never get my text...I really want to turn everything in. :) I'm so excited though! I can somewhat get a head start on college credits!

Mariah did not spend the night with me last night. Turns out that she went over to Rebekah's. Brenda and Rebekah must have made up or something.

I was over at Caleb's place yesterday and we played a game. I forgot what it was called...Started with a b or something. It was a fun strategy game though...I felt like an idiot at some points though. LOL.

Bell is going to ring like in four minutes.

Towards the end of Spanish class yesterday, we watch the tennis match going on. It's like a really crowd quiet game. I think it's one of those sports though that would be so more fun if you were actually playing it (like football).

So, today at the school is an even day. Which reminds me, I need to finish my biology homework. So I should probably go now. Later.

Mariah

So this is my niece Mariah (daughter of Brenda).  :)  I meant to talk about her over the weekend, but as I already have mentioned, I was having problems with logging in.

She spent the night with my on Friday!  She is so adorable!!!!  She's really into fairies right now and while we were walking around that is all she wanted to talk about (she even left a fairy house at my place).  She's going to spend the night with me tonight and tomorrow night.  I love her.  :)

P.S. Click on the image to see the entire picture.  The layout is cutting the picture off.

Ruth

So I reread the book of Ruth in Guitar class.  It was awesome.  I have another role model now.  :)  Some things you have to reread until it just clicks.  Or, the more you read it, you get a better understanding.  There's a quote I remember, You learn line upon line precept upon precept.  Which I think it's true.  So anyway, Ruth is a really cool person.  So my role models are: my older brother, Jesus, Joan (of Arc), Ruth, and Nephi.

So in guitar class we are learning more scales.  We were tested on the natural, harmonic, and melodic ones today.  I really enjoy learning more about music and how to play instruments.

I remembered to bring my lunch money today. Yay.

I'm hoping that it won't rain after school because I really want to draw that one house and do some scenery drawings (OK, maybe the scenery drawings I'll do on a sunny day, but maybe on how the clouds look I might still draw some).  I want to pick up on my "hobbies" or whatever you want to call it again.  Because I know I'm not perfect.  Or maybe I should call working on my skills?

I really do think that school is getting easier.  Less homework=more time to do reading and other fun things.  But it can also mean time to do all those chores. -_-

Anyway...

I decided I need to buy more jeans.  I'm wearing shorts today because my mom has been having the washer and dryer, and I haven't been able to wash my clothes.  I just don't really like wearing shorts.  I feel dumb in them.  I rather wear my spandex, but you can't wear those for normal clothing.  Spandex is meant to be worn while playing a sport or exercising.

I want to go to the Harrisonburg Library sometime to walk around.  Actually, I think I would prefer to go to the JMU Library.  I have never been there.  Or...does Bridgewater College have a library?  Maybe I can convince one of my friends who go to Bridgewater to take me to the library there.

I need to work on being a better person.  I feel like I am going downhill.

I need to contact my hometeachers.  They said they were going to see me  but they haven't.  So I need to call them and ask them when they can come.  Which reminds me, I need to call the Elders too and let them know when they can come next week because they said they weren't able to come by today.

I just know that I can do so much better.  I just don't know why I am being like this.

I miss the Gooss family.  They're a great family if you ever get to know them.  I'm really happy that I got to know all of them.  I want to see them again.

I'm thinking about not doing volleyball this upcoming fall.  Mainly, I want to concentrate more on school and be able to work still.  I also want to be able to relax.  Last fall just seemed crazy because it seems I didn't have time to do anything.

I didn't have to give my sister a ride today.  She got one of the cars fix and is driving that.

I feel...I'm not sure how to describe it...tired now.  Maybe I should try to go to bed earlier?

I think I need to put more effort at home...We haven't had FHE (family home evenings) for awhile.  But it seems by the time I get home and finish eating, Mom and Dad are going to bed.  Maybe we'll get to do that today since I don't have work today.  Or maybe I can get Mom and Dad to do it on Sundays.  The thing is though on Sundays, I'm not sure how the rest of the family will look forward to that.  Like, I want to read scriptures together and play hymns.  That's my approach to it.  Others I know play games, but there just isn't really any games I want to play.

I want to get a dog when I move out of the house.  I just need to make sure it gets along with my cat Ichigo.  The kind of dog I would like to get would either be a collie or a golden retriever.

Oh, Ashley's boyfriend (Brackston...I don't know how to spell it, I can say it though. :) ), loan me some boys.  The Art of War and Ninja ( I think that is what it is titled).  The Art of War is pretty good so far (I'm still in the Translator's Notes section.  It seems big).

I'm gonna go now and read.  Later.

Lunch

So, I keep forgetting my lunch money.  Should probably bring it tomorrow so I can actually eat.

I plan to do some drawing after school tomorrow.  I'm going to... I think it's Summit Ave.  in Harrisonburg (not the one in Elkton).  There's this house that has a really nice design to it and there some scenery pictures I want to try to draw.  I am hoping for this weather to go away so I can draw.

I'm coming to school late tomorrow too.  I am giving my sister a ride to...I'm not sure to what, but to something.  Oh.  I remember now.  Weyer's Cave. or is it Wyer's Cave?  How is that place spell? LOL.  Oh dear.  I need food.  I think I am starting to go crazy.

So, my Mom made stuff peppers yesterday.  I really like them, but it turns out that Brenda and Rebekah don't really like it.  Oh, in case you are wondering what makes a stuff pepper a stuff pepper, it's basically the pepper cut in half, then you put in this hamburger and rice sauce inside of it and then you let it cook.  It's basically the opposite of meatloaf but you have rice in it also.

In English we are going over Julias Caesar.  I really like Shakespeare.  I want to go to one of the plays.  I think it's over in Charlottesvillle or something.  It's expensive though.  I would prefer to go with someone, so I need to see if anybody is interested.

School subjects are getting easier now I think.  I'm doing more of personal studying.  I'm readying Gray's Anatomy.  The first part of it was basically review but then on Saturday finally I was learning new things. 

I decided my major will be architect and my minors will be architect landscaping and physical therapy.  Still need to decide what college to go.  I want to go to out of state, but it seems the best college to take these courses is in Virginia.

It's still cloudy today (it might be raining, not sure...).  I don't like working at the water park when it's cloudy.  I don't mind the rain; I love it actually.  I just like working inside when it is so cloudy.  First, it makes the place colder usually (I think so anyway).  Second, it just doesn't make me as talkative or cheerful.  I tend to keep more to myself on those cloudy days.

I really do love the rain though.  It's fun...OK.  Maybe I actually prefer to be in the rain, not inside where I see how dark it is when it could actually be bright and sunny inside the water park.  

I plan to run/swim more as long the weather actually is nice.  If it's cloudy or whatever, I'll probably end up doing chores inside the house or something.  So, when Mom and Dad aren't the house, I usually play music and be dancing and doing my chores at the same time.  It's pretty fun when the right kind of music (should probably say song) comes on.  

I'm wondering what was for lunch today and if it was any good.  Definitely need to bring lunch money tomorrow.

There's this knitting book I want to get, but I forgot what it is called.  I know what it looks like and I know where it is, but it costs a bit of money.  I want to get it though when I can.  It has some really cute shirt designs and some other cute things I didn't think you can do with knitting.

I'm running out of things to say and there is still ten minutes left.

So, as you probably can already tell, after school today I am going to work.  So perhaps the cold will keep my mind off the food and break I can busy myself by talking on the phone or reading my anatomy book.  (You can see that I do like to eat.)

Speaking of food, maybe I should talk about some things I like to do.  I like to cook.  I like to draw.  I like to watch television (but of course mainly the shows I like.  Such as The O.C., Gilmore Girls, House).  I like to read.  I really like to learn new things.  You can pretty much say I am like Da Vinci (I just don't invent things. LOL).  I really like to listen to music.  I love to dance.  I want to take some dance classes, but that conflicts with working and financial stuff.  My favorite places to go to would be the book store, library, skating rink, the  ice skating rink, the types of cities you can just walk around and look/go into stores.  Hmmm...what else?  Oh, I like to do air soft, but it seems like team is going to fall apart because our leaders moved into NC, so I probably just going to practice on my own or something unless someone wants to play with me.  I like to exercise.  I just love being active.  But I also don't mind just sitting down and relaxing all day (for example, reading a book).

I want to be able to speak German, Japanese, Spanish, and Russian.  I'm also learning Sign Language.

I enjoy studying.  This includes those subjects I just have interests in (anatomy, buildings,  etc.) and scripture studying.  My favorites are 1 Cor., John, Alma 56 &57, and 2 Nephi 4.

Right now my favorite songs are Lifeline and Carry Me by Papa Roach.

I enjoy reading manga also.  I watch anime too.  Lately though, I haven't had the time to do so.  Same with video games.  I miss those days.  Perhaps maybe over the summer?  But I have plans for the summer too.  I want to go to the beach (which I have mention like two times already).

I want to get married young.  Not sure if that is going to happen, but I want to.  I would like to get married in one of the following temples: Rome, Tokyo, or Salt Lake City.  I can't wait to go through the Endowment, but in the mean time, I need to work on being a better person.

Bell rang.  Gotta go.  Later.

Blog Troubles

That took forever!  Over the weekend I could not log into my blog account.  I hope I don't go through this problem again.  That was really annoying.

Anyway.  I wanted to talk about some things that happen over the weekend.  On Friday I went and picked up Aniela and we went to Walmart to buy flowers to plant (Caleb met us there).  So after we picked up the flowers we went to the church and planted them.  Caleb left, so it was me and Aneila.  We went to buy flowers for my personal garden at Homedepot ( I know it seems like I am blabbing, but I'm trying to get you some background info first).  So while we were shopping, I grabbed one of those...  What do you call it?  It like those...it's not a cart...but it's flat so you can put more things on it and you push it and.  Anyway, I hope you know what I am talking about.  (This probably would be more funny if you were there to see it instead of me just telling it).  So while we waiting to cross the road, these guys in their cars let us go buy.  So after we cross I decided to jump onto the "cart" and roll down.  Well, LOL, that didn't work.  It started to swerve to one side and some of the plants fell out.  The guy who let us pass by had his head on the wheel and his passenger was laughing his head off.  Some of the plants fell off (poor plants).  But it was so funny.  Anyway, those "carts" aren't meant to jump on and ride down the road because it swerves to one side.  It was fun though. :)

I have to go to English now.  I'll write more during lunch.

Half Day at the School

Hey!  Today is a half day at school.  I was planning to work on the church's garden, but it seems like it might rain.  I hope not.  I want to get started on those flowers then work on my personal garden at home.  I'm planning to plant petunias for the church.  I was going to plant white lilies at home, but I can't find any...  Maybe I'll find the bulbs or something.  If not, I saw another type of flower I could use instead.  I have to work on the food garden also.  I'm planning to plant watermelons (because Mom and Dad said they weren't going to help, but that is OK).

So we're not doing anything in guitar class because this period is short, so that's why I am on the computer now typing whatever pops on my head.

I'm listening to Pandora.  The school is like the only place I can listen to this station because I have dial-up at home.  Oo!  A really good song is on now.  It would be really awesome if Pandora could work somehow in cars.

Sister Orawiec suggested that I buy this box set of O.C. that has all the seasons in it.  She said it was cheaper that way, so when I have the money I will do that.

I'm planning to celebrate Mother's Day early.  This Saturday actually.  I'm taking my parents (and possibly my brother Timmy and Chris) to Red Lobster's.  I figured that would be the best gift to give Mom because we haven't ate out together as a family for awhile.  We haven't been able to spend some time with each other either.

It was funny somewhat in the hallways before I got to guitar class.  A girl saw my ball and played with it.  I wonder how popular the sparkly balls will be at school.

So, if it does rain after school, I am planning to swim mainly or maybe run.  Most likely swim though because I can get in Le Club for free.

Oh, Jessi quoted some things from my blog this morning in Algebra class.  It's good to know that someone is reading this and I'm not just doing this for myself. LOL.  Just kidding actually.  I probably would write in here still even if no one was reading this.

I haven't been able to go to seminary...  I need to do better.

Oh,  I talked with Crystal , who teaches at JMU, yesterday.  I was seeing if she had any lectures today but it turns out her class has ended and won't start up again until August.  That's OK.  :)  I do want to see her teach.  She is a pretty cool person.

This has to be the longest blog post ever.  I'm wondering if I should even put labels on it because this post is just bouncing from one thought to another.

I actually should be coloring this one assignment for biology, but I'll do that later.  I still have some time.

So, when I have some spending money I plan on buying:  the all-season box of The O.C., music from Itunes, and clothes.

I really can't wait for the summer.  I really do want to go to the beach.  I did request off work to go to Youth Conference and EFY though.  I'm wondering how EFY will turn out because it will be my first time going.  It's at Buena Vista.

Bed is such a good song (it's by J. Holiday).  Well, I'm listening to it now.  That's the reason I am talking about it now.  I'm starting to run out of things to talk about...

I think I am going to go now.  Maybe I'll write some more later.  Later.

The O.C./ Can't Wait for Summer!

So I have been watching this series lately and I really enjoy it. :)  I think Ryan is really cute and Marisa is a really pretty girl.  I enjoy the music on the series too.  I think I got Mom into the series also.  It seems whatever I start watching, Mom and Dad get interested too.  It's kind of funny.

I can't wait for the summer!  I want to drive to the beach or something if I get a day off from work.  I want to be in the sand and play in the ocean.  Ok.  Probably sounding like a dork right now, but who cares.  It's my blog.  LOL.  Anyway.  Stacy and I (and possibly Kassy)  are going shopping Friday after school.  I need to get some spring/summer clothes.  I might buy the first season of O.C. since it's only $20 dollars there now at the moment.

I should probably go now.  Later. :)

P.S.  Another thing I can't wait to do is to actually start drawing or take pictures.  Mainly I want to draw.  Actually, I want to go to Summit Ave. and draw some sceneries there.  It's really pretty.

Rain/Guitar Class

We're learning some new scales in Guitar class.  I came to the library to print out some tabs and try to play them during class.  It's raining outside. :)  I have to go out there for technical drawing so my hair is going to get all wet (you see, it's straighten).  I have it put up, but it's going to look mess up after it starts curling.  Oh well.  A lot of people are messing with my purple ball today.  Actually, it's starting to look pink right now.  Hmmm....might need to debate over the color with someone.  Because yesterday it seem purple but now it's looking pink.  Maybe it is because the school's light are somewhat dimmed.  I should probably get back to class now.  Later!

P.S.  The posting times are messed up somehow...I wonder if there is any way I can fix that...

Balls can be so fun. :)

So I have a classmate in chemistry that keeps bringing this blue sparkly ball.  It is so much fun to play with!!! :)  So I finally went to Walmart yesterday and bought two of my own.  One blue and the other purple.  I'll take some pictures and post them later either here or on Facebook, but man!  They're new form of entertainment!  They're also fun to play catch with or have it accidentally roll down the hill and have the person run after it.  (Caleb, that really was funny :) ).  

So anyway, I am at school right now.  The last six weeks are being easy with homework assignments and all of that because of the SOLs/exams coming up.  I need to finish my catch-up homework in Biology though and do that extra credit assignment for Algebra.  Actually there is also another extra credit assignment in Biology, but I don't think I am going to do it.

I've been listening to a new CD I bought (thanks to Kat who made my mind up to go out and buy it. :) ).   It's Papa Roach's Metamorphosis (spelling?).  My favorite songs are Lifeline and Carry Me.  There some other songs I like towards the end of the album, but I forgot their names.

I didn't feel that good this morning.  So I just stayed at home for a little bit then came to school.

I only had to work this past Monday for this week, so I am going to work on my food garden, my floral garden, and the church's floral garden.

My friends just took my amazing purple sparkly ball. :)

Did I ever mention I am at school now. LOL.

I hope we still have the picnic today even though it's raining a little bit this morning.  I want to play on the sand courts.  I love volleyball so much.  It's the best sport ever.

I can't wait for the summer!!!  True, I will be working more at the waterpark and wherever else Heather might send me, but I love the weather and if I get one of the shifts off maybe I can convince some people to play some sport or do something with me.  Sometimes I think I need to have more of a social life. LOL.

I need to go.  School is about to start in five minutes.  Later!