Wow, It's A New Year And I Haven't Written In Here Yet

So, yeah, pretty much express how I felt in the title. Should write in here more often but I just tend not to or busy with school or...being with Caleb and Jenna who I may possibly not be around with anymore...Don't know. Will have to see how the future goes. Exams are next week. I need to make sure I do really well. I'm practically failing three of my classes which is not good at all...I think Biology and Chemistry I could bring up and not get a F, but I don't know about Spanish...I'll just have to try my best and do a lot more than my best.

Mom said we can redo my room the way I want it. She's letting me repainting it and tearing the carpet out to put in a wooden floor. I think she might be letting me doing that because I said since I would be staying away from Jenna and Caleb that obviously means I am not moving into an apartment with Jenna. So, I guess Mom is just making me comfortable during my college years I guess.

Got a letter from Mary Baldwin... Going to fill out an application and see how that goes... Otherwise, I might be going to Blue Ridge...Be cool though....I think to go to Mary Baldwin...

I want to be a massage therapist, but there seems to be things that are trying to point me to otherwise. I'll just have to see...

I did want to go to college to like, do something for literature. Like major in it. I love reading and writing. Could most likely do better at the writing, but I enjoy it very much.

What else to talk about?

Been getting into snowboarding. It's lots of fun and I believe I am getting a workout from it. My elbows and knees are so bruised up but that is fine. :) I can handle it.

Will be getting out soon. It's funny... or ironic... or I do not know. I am going to be with a person that I am saying I am not going to be around with after he moves out of the house into his own apartment or where ever he may be living. Anyway, Caleb and I are going into Harrisonburg to fill out some things and I will be doing some school work and such.

K...I think I am going to peace out now. Bai bais.

It's Been Awhile

Hey! Been awhile since I have written in here. Don't really know what to write at this moment. Been writing in my journal and such.

Ah! So I have a new "lover"! LOL. OK. Not really. But I really like the character from this one book. His name is Patch, and he is from the book called Hush, Hush. It is a very good book, and I recommend it very much. I like it more than Twilight actually. :) So I need to find a Patch of my own.

OK. So, I feel like I should try to be dating again or something, but uh,... :\ I got nothing mostly. I mean, I did have some opportunities one time, but then things got crazy, so I don't know if they would still like to try, you know? I feel bad about canceling on them, but it was so crazy.

So, I need to try harder at school. Sometimes it seems like no matter how much effort I put into it, it doesn't seem to be enough. Need to start staying up late at nights somehow or something. But I like sleeping.

I think I may be starting to get sick. :/ It was from either:

1. Shoveling snow off the road and creating pathways for about an hour or so
2. Sharing a cup/drink with another sick person.

So my own stupidity, but oh well. Don't really care/mind. Just as long as I don't get terribly sick.

So, I'm thinkin' that I am most likely too emotional or something. Like yesterday, a friend of mine was talking 
with another friend, and friend number two was sayin' something like they could not handle being friends with friend number one. So I was trying to help friend number one realize how they were there for friend 
number two other times just not last night because they accidentally feel asleep and didn't wake up until like two hours after they were suppose to pick up friend number one. I just felt like crying. I felt like I could 
feel both of their pains. Does that sound weird or stupid? So, I was to calm myself down and stop crying 
because I didn't want friend number one to go like, "Why the heck are you crying?" So friend number one is 
worried about friend number two ignoring him. I told him that she will most likely start talking with him again 
and that she probably just needs some time or space to herself. I also told him he should pray. And I also told
him that I will pray and fast for him and her.
I was also trying to find another job, but that isn't going so well so far, so I am most likely stuck as working as 
a lifeguard for Massenutten. But maybe I should just deal with the things going on. I am not getting all sad and
mopey like I was earlier. Last couple times of work weren't so bad.

Some people lately have been telling me that I have been distant. Kind of sucks. I don't mean to be. Maybe I
just feel like I can't really talk with them because I feel like that they would not understand because they are 
not part of the situation or were not part of a situation like it.

I am feeling kind of hungry right now. I want food.

I feel so... hyper-active in my English class sometimes. I am most likely one of the most talkative, rambucious 
(I have no clue on how to spell this word) people there. Mr. Scott sometimes goes like, "Someone other than 
Danielle please." It's kind of funny, but I love English and sometimes I can really get into talking.

OK. I think I am going to peace out now and do some reading. Later. :)

Hey, so, I just went back to read some old blogs, and I realized I said I would become more distant with
people. Somewhat funny. Didn't remember writing that part. Maybe I have been becoming more distant 
without being conscious of it?